Monday, January 26, 2009

The Funk...

Every so often, I get in a funk.  Wouldn't call it depression, but just the Funk.  It includes varying degrees of depth and can either come on all at once or gradually.  I handle it differently (always including reflection on the great gifts God has given me and prayers of thanksgiving) and generally get the same results.  It will run its course and end when it ends and often hangs around longer when I try to cheer myself up or others try to cheer me up as I begin to feel guilty for not being more "chipper" (the mood, not Larry the baseball player from Atlanta or the potato chips at The Philosopher's Stone).

This time it kind of came on gradually over the course of a few days about 3 weeks ago.  Because I was out of town and alone much of the time, I was able to hide it when around people, I've become quite good at acting.  Anyway, today, as I was working on some detail stuff at work (which I hate, not strongly dislike, I mean hate), I began to recall lines from Office Space and began to laugh at my desk, and just like that, the funk was gone.  That's how it goes, quotes from tv shows and movies almost constantly run through my head as I go about my day and people have often caught me laughing to myself.  Even while in The Funk, these same clips run through my head and I can smile or laugh at them, but The Funk quickly returns to envelop me.  Then, one time, it's over.

So, one more time, you see what is going on in my head.  Hope it's not too scary.

P.S. If I ignored, offended or whined to you in the last three weeks... I take full responsibility and apologize.

1 comment:

  1. i can totally relate to this...unfortunately. i have to admit, it makes me feel a little crazy sometimes...most of the time. and it never ceases to amaze me how quickly i can come out of a "funk" - for me, it's thinking about how much my office mirrors "the office."

    but thank goodness when i'm "in the depths," someone always says something and i can insert "that's what she said, that's what she said!," reclaiming my positive, light-hearted attitude. you are not alone, my friend. :)

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